Today would be my grandpa’s earthly birthday. I took him flowers and a birthday balloon yesterday. I go to the cemetery often, I find solace there. Two people I love more then I have words to describe lay at rest there and I know they meet me when I set by their side, to talk. I have their graves decorated with many summer flowers, and a NY Mets pennant adorns Papa’s side.
When life reaches up and takes my breath away, breaks my heart, or even just seriously hurts my feelings, where do I often run…to the cemetery. Weird? Maybe! I ask myself that often. Why is it, I run to the cemetery when my heart hurts? Why? because two people who showed me unconditional love are there and I can still feel that love as I remove scattered leaves, plant new flowers and blow kisses up to the clouds gracefully floating by.
I grew up knowing my grandma was a few years older then my grandpa and that she was uncomfortable with that, and as a pair declared grandma three years younger than my grandpa, if or when an age conversation ever came up. This was always a family secret, I don’t know why or the significance but this was a thing. I smile often when I look at their headstone. My papa carried their secret to his death because my grandma’s birth year is carved incorrectly…On Purpose!!! That’s the type of love my grandpa gave.
Happy Earthly Birthday My little Jewish Papa, I miss you so! Speaking of another Jewish Papa…God!!! He loves you more then I have words to describe. He loves you in a way neither you nor I can truly grasp. If you were blessed to have that unconditional love of a grandparent and you took that love and magnified 1500x you still couldn’t reach the depths of our Lords love for YOU!!! Yes, You!!!…All of You!!!
So, maybe it’s hard to believe why or how or even if…but give it a try! Find a place of solace, set down and look up and ask him to shine his love down on you and to fill your heart. Simply ask to understand his love as you do or did your grandpas. If you were blessed as I…that’s an easy love to understand and start with. I love you! God loves you! Be Blessed today and thank you for joining me. 🥰
Sunshine On My Shoulder 